[He says after a beat, head bowed until Sylvie is tilting his chin and making him look at him. He stares into the familiar eyes of his always lover, lifetime after lifetime, and he feels his words are shakier than he would've ever liked them to be. Sylvie isn't pushing him away, isn't reaming him for doing this the way Emmet feels he should be which feels good and bad. He wants the comfort, he wants to be accepted regardless in Sylvain's endless mercy and understanding but... he just doesn't feel he deserves it.
So many years, so many lives - he's carried the guilt of being the reason they're all stuck like this. Hoping tht one day he can believe there'll be an end like the others hope, wishing he could believe so wholeheartedly that it hurts. He leans to put their foreheads together, still half wishing that Sylvie would hate him. Would yell at him. Would tear him to shreds so he can stop feeling like he's getting away with ruining their lives.]
I love you but I shouldn't be the reason you suffer.
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[He says after a beat, head bowed until Sylvie is tilting his chin and making him look at him. He stares into the familiar eyes of his always lover, lifetime after lifetime, and he feels his words are shakier than he would've ever liked them to be. Sylvie isn't pushing him away, isn't reaming him for doing this the way Emmet feels he should be which feels good and bad. He wants the comfort, he wants to be accepted regardless in Sylvain's endless mercy and understanding but... he just doesn't feel he deserves it.
So many years, so many lives - he's carried the guilt of being the reason they're all stuck like this. Hoping tht one day he can believe there'll be an end like the others hope, wishing he could believe so wholeheartedly that it hurts. He leans to put their foreheads together, still half wishing that Sylvie would hate him. Would yell at him. Would tear him to shreds so he can stop feeling like he's getting away with ruining their lives.]
I love you but I shouldn't be the reason you suffer.